In My Eyes
As I start my last week of classes before finals I find myself reflecting on the decisions I've made this past academic year. The reflections are ones of truth, self-care, and happiness. Switching universities was one of the best decisions I've made and I am so proud of myself for recognizing that.
I have learned a lot about myself in these past 8 months. Through the struggles that I endured and that hardships that were placed in my path at the beginning of my freshman year, I have become more self aware and have grown as an individual. Following my heart was hard especially when I knew my actions would affect other people I cared about. But as a result of following my heart, it is now full and ready to burst. The outpour of love and support was something I did not expect to experience when I publicly announced my decision to go home. And although all of that meant the world to me, I realized that none of it mattered. What mattered was what made me happy without any influence from others. Once I had accepted what I was going to do with a whole heart and the goal of happiness in mind, nothing could stop me.
When people say that you are in charge of your own happiness, they speak the truth. If I had not come to that realization, I'm sure my life now would be different. All the cliches that parents or mentors tell you I have found to be true. I am in charge of my own happiness. I do need to put myself first. I do need to be happy with myself before others can be happy for me. And I am only going to live once. Next time you hear a cliche, try not to roll your eyes and laugh. Instead, think about ways in which you could incorporate that cliche into your life to make it more happy, fulfilled, and truthful.
After the rollercoaster I've been through this past academic year, in my eyes I see the key to happiness is learning to trust yourself.
I have learned a lot about myself in these past 8 months. Through the struggles that I endured and that hardships that were placed in my path at the beginning of my freshman year, I have become more self aware and have grown as an individual. Following my heart was hard especially when I knew my actions would affect other people I cared about. But as a result of following my heart, it is now full and ready to burst. The outpour of love and support was something I did not expect to experience when I publicly announced my decision to go home. And although all of that meant the world to me, I realized that none of it mattered. What mattered was what made me happy without any influence from others. Once I had accepted what I was going to do with a whole heart and the goal of happiness in mind, nothing could stop me.
When people say that you are in charge of your own happiness, they speak the truth. If I had not come to that realization, I'm sure my life now would be different. All the cliches that parents or mentors tell you I have found to be true. I am in charge of my own happiness. I do need to put myself first. I do need to be happy with myself before others can be happy for me. And I am only going to live once. Next time you hear a cliche, try not to roll your eyes and laugh. Instead, think about ways in which you could incorporate that cliche into your life to make it more happy, fulfilled, and truthful.
After the rollercoaster I've been through this past academic year, in my eyes I see the key to happiness is learning to trust yourself.
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